Along this healing journey, I’m constantly being reminded of the deep extent that actions mean so much more than just words,….even though I’m a writer of words; but if I don’t put them in writing and share then I don’t see it as an action. #goals
At my ACOA group meeting last night, the one I used to be embarrassed to talk about. The topic of our childhood and how we dealt with our siblings, related to them, protected them came up. My first response was a quick and easy “no problem, I’m an only kid so I didn’t have to deal with any of these relationships.”
Well, as we went around in our circle it hit me super hard! A realization I hadn’t put into words before about some of my own “Triggers” and how we can go from happy to sad in seconds when they pop up. This in particular brought up my deep lifelong feelings of isolation, being alone, loneliness when growing up my dysfunctional childhood home.
So all these generic greetings, “I’m ok, I’m fine,…”. They really do start to add up against our truths at times. The strongest life lesson I’ve learned so far is to continuously build and work on myself, my health, my emotional and spiritual wellbeing, and to support my community of friends and family that are on this walk with me.
And for myself in particular, this means finding the healthy boundaries and walking with, in front of, or behind others who are also honestly trying, despite the healing stage they might be in.
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I want to share a beautiful original song here, (with permission),that says all this and then more about being ok, finding the ok, sharing the ok. Thanks so much to Ethan Trokey, singer and author, for putting these words out here in such a real and relatable way, “okay.”
Live, Laugh, Love with everything you’ve got while you still can! 💜✨ Thank you all so much for stopping by. I truly appreciate and value you all.
