FEAR #2: Not being Enough, not being good enough,….
This emotional healing journey is forcing me to plow right through my biggest fears. Actually confronting and then writing about these fears is something I never thought I’d do, especially in such a public forum.
Having said that, I am a writer, and writing is how my true voice comes out most naturally. So, here we go again, digging into the hard stuff.
I’m not absolutely sure yet, but I think this fear of not being enough comes from childhood years of being bullied, laughed at, and the isolation that came with my elementary school set up.
When the abuse started in the household, the isolation and complete family disconnect kicked in also. I believe this developed into a realization that due to extreme dysfunction, if I ever wanted a chance of leading a somewhat healthy life I had to go out completely on my own, so I did. (another story for another time).
Counseling and my group are definitely starting to make a positive dent in these negative thoughts.
They’re still there, but I’m working towards realizing that because I’m doing the work, because I do care about myself and others; and because I have chosen to maintain kindness and love in this life
I AM ENOUGH. I’m just now starting to say it to myself, but I have high hopes it’ll really sink in soon.
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