FEAR #1: Anger
So on this path to trying to emotionally heal, as best as possible, I’m ready to dive in to the really hard stuff.
We all have secrets, we all have stories. I’ve learned that being around angry people is one of my biggest fears.
Why,…well I grew up in a household full of a “room consuming” angry dad. Long story short, I’m starting to realize he was one of the babies of his abusive family. This isn’t ever going to excuse his acting out, yelling at the top of his lungs about everyday things,….temper tantrums.
He didn’t drink, but he had his own addiction problems. His dad drank, and showed all his kids an angry drunk. So my dad didn’t drink, but kept the anger. I became a calmer personality, but the anger is apparently still there. It comes out after reaching a certain Tipping point in the drinking levels.
Number one reason why I haven’t had more than one drink in any one sitting for the past four years. It’d be so interesting someday to see if any research is ever done on “angry drunks.” I don’t believe it’s a choice at all.
Too much at stake here. And if someone really wants to be hurtful about any of this, expect no response from me. I won’t even entertain provokers anymore. I’ll delete, block, whatever needed to stay on this healthy journey.
Live, Laugh, Love with everything you’ve got while you still can! 💜✨ Thank you so much for stopping by. I truly appreciate and value all of you here.
You are so right. It is possible to carry the learned behavior even if your dad didn’t drink. You are choosing to change the pattern. Way to go!
Thank you so much for your thoughts here! Love having you along during this journey. 💜✨
Wish you a very happy, peaceful and fruitful life ahead pf you!
Sorry for the misprint, it’s ahead of you!🙂
No worries at all!! I had a feeling I knew exactly what you were saying. Thank you so much for your thoughts here!
It’s my pleasure!
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