It’s hard to explain, but anything I’ve ever made fun of (ex. Mini vans), or things I’ve feared (Cancer, mom passing young) has been, ever so gently, placed right in my lap to deal with. Yes, so I honestly don’t make fun of anything anymore,….karma, or whatever it is, has shown that to me numerous times. Make fun and I’ll give it to you! 😳
But the fears, I feel this has to be a God thing. Looking at some of my biggest ones now: dying young, loneliness/feeling alone, crowds, fear of being around angry people,…..there’s more, but I really don’t want to keep going.
So, working at a Cancer Hospital has put me in line for the COVID vaccine. I was there today with staff and the beginning of our elderly population. I’m not a front liner but sometimes needed to cover patient areas in extreme cases.
I felt a lot of my fears today, the crowded areas, feeling alone in the crowd,….thankfully no angry peers today. But anxiety tried to creep in when the staff member next to me almost fainted.
Never in my life have I ever seen anything like I did today. It was a solid, and very efficient, medical environment. But to look at the faces was another story in itself; WWII veterans slowly wheeling themselves through the line, women nervously inching along trying to maintain enough distance. Overall, a lot of tired faces.
Today I need to find the gratitude instead of letting the fear consume me.
I’m from a family of nurses, so I’ve never questioned getting the vaccine. How can I, when I have family that’s been on the front lines for almost a year now. They’re all extremely relieved for it, so I need to use their perspective. These are the educated, hardworking peers, friends, and family members I’m sure almost all of us know and love.
Just talking about these things is helping out a great deal. Thank you for checking in here. I’m more than willing to talk about this with you if you’re apprehensive when your turn comes, or if you’re just curious about how it affects me.
Live, Laugh, Love with everything you’ve got, while you still can! I truly value and appreciate all of you here. 💜✨
